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Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example,’The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.’

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another’s. She will be another’s. Like my kisses before.
Her void. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

- Pablo Neruda

And because love battles

not only in its burning agricultures
but also in the mouth of men and women,
I will finish off by taking the path away
to those who between my chest and your fragrance
want to interpose their obscure plant.

About me, nothing worse
they will tell you, my love,
than what I told you.

I lived in the prairies
before I got to know you
and I did not wait love but I was
laying in wait for and I jumped on the rose.

What more can they tell you?
I am neither good nor bad but a man,
and they will then associate the danger
of my life, which you know
and which with your passion you shared.

And good, this danger
is danger of love, of complete love
for all life,
for all lives,
and if this love brings us
the death and the prisons,
I am sure that your big eyes,
as when I kiss them,
will then close with pride,
into double pride, love,
with your pride and my pride.

But to my ears they will come before
to wear down the tour
of the sweet and hard love which binds us,
and they will say: "The one
you love,
is not a woman for you,
Why do you love her? I think
you could find one more beautiful,
more serious, more deep,
more other, you understand me, look how she’s light,
and what a head she has,
and look at how she dresses,
and etcetera and etcetera".

And I in these lines say:
Like this I want you, love,
love, Like this I love you,
as you dress
and how your hair lifts up
and how your mouth smiles,
light as the water
of the spring upon the pure stones,
Like this I love you, beloved.

To bread I do not ask to teach me
but only not to lack during every day of life.
I don’t know anything about light, from where
it comes nor where it goes,
I only want the light to light up,
I do not ask to the night
explanations,
I wait for it and it envelops me,
And so you, bread and light
And shadow are.

You came to my life
with what you were bringing,
made
of light and bread and shadow I expected you,
and Like this I need you,
Like this I love you,
and to those who want to hear tomorrow
that which I will not tell them, let them read it here,
and let them back off today because it is early
for these arguments.

Tomorrow we will only give them
a leaf of the tree of our love, a leaf
which will fall on the earth
like if it had been made by our lips
like a kiss which falls
from our invincible heights
to show the fire and the tenderness
of a true love.

-Pablo Neruda

sometimes, what we truly want is vividly in front of us…

If you choose career now, then you will never know when its too late already to fight for an unrequited love…

Everything in life are full of what ifs…

If you want to choose love, then you really have to sacrifice the call of career opportunities…

You shouldn’t regret not getting the Plus factor which comes along with having a career.

Let me point out

Career: You go to different places

You can still do that, although limited siya and you have to consider the family….family concerns outweigh personal drive meet new people

YOu meet new people

if you allow you social circle to widen, meeting and befriending new people is all up to you, but when you are married, you maintain a considerable social distance…

you’ll earn a lot of money, you get rich

A complete and utter fallacy, people don’t get rich because of their career….You should start a company or a business to get filthy rich, anyhow.. thats superficial

you live on the go, you’ll not stay long together with your family, you always travel, etc..

If your someone who loves a spontaneous life, then this is one benefit you would love..but remember that people get tired of continually being part of the statistics on NPA

Love life: Settle down in one place, be with the one you love Nothing beats this feelings…you can just lie all day with the one you love. (pero kaon pud panagsa)

be contented with what you earn

But make sure you are able to sustain your family’s NEEDS not WANTS

raise a family, look after the welfare of your kids, be a good dad/mom, cook food every day, do laundry,

This is the most difficult challenge in WOMANHOOD!! there are no clear criteria to become awarded as the BEST PARENT, but in our child’s eyes, we will always be affirmed of our WORTH and ESSENCE.

eventually you’ll get a maid

Be a hands on mom, you might ask someone to clean the house, but do not choose a substitute mom

your kids will thank you someday for being the world’s greatest dad/mom, etc..

they don’t realize this though until they have a family of their own,,,hehehe

Bottom Line: In CAREER you have winners and losers, but in REAL LOVE, there are no losers…sometimes love don’t end up the way you imagined it would be, but the true measure of love is how much we have transcended beyond ourselves to extend oneness with the OTHER…if you think you have found LOVE, you shouldn’t let your fears get in the way, there may be tears, but they are of joy and sometimes sadness, there may be problems, but they are challenges… Once you find LOVE, you will never find it again, not in the same intensity, not in the exact same way.